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at 1:43 AM

Well I should probably start off saying hi, and then wondering whether anyone at all revisited this page. 4 months plus was a long hiatus... and many many things happened along the 4 months period. Good and bad. I'm currently like a survivor who managed to live through those hard times. Survived, but at the same time mentally tired and so fed up with life, especially the responsibilities I currently hold.

Had to admit that I've become so much stronger, so does my point of view and expectations towards life and my future. What I have gone through caused me to be at my maximum endurance level that I decided I need to put a full stop to what I am doing and live the life of a student and a teenager. Enjoy good food, good movies, hang outs, outdoor activities, and just being so hardcore and strive in studies. Perhaps more time in spending quality time with family and the boyfriend as well.

Problem is I never been able to put a stop because situation does not allow, timing is not right, and things are well planned ahead that I need to keep stepping forward. And to ensure everything is in place, first I need an super extreme great plan and strategies to solve all my frustration and to address all my consideration...

Till then.

at 8:50 AM

现在的我很好
但偶尔总会有一线的失落
总觉得生活里好像缺乏一些东西
总觉得心很累
总是想要给自己放一个长假
平静的生活一段时间

To all blog readers at 1:16 AM

So recently, I've came to know about the release of an app by the Nuffnang team called NuffnangX.

I've actually installed the app as soon as it has been launched but didn't really care much about its function at the beginning. Since reading through blogs is one of my daily routines, I started to utilize the app instead of the regular web each time I read blogs. And true enough, the app does makes the stalking job so much easier!

Like twitter, I can easily follow them by just typing in the URL of the blogs I read. And these blogs will appear in the 'blogs I follow' tab.

All blog posts are shown in a mobile friendly version with a short caption that the system has automatically selected the most interesting sentence from that particular blog post. At one glance, it doesn't only allow me to know whether the blogger has new updates, but also roughly give me an idea what the particular post is all about. Sometimes the sentence extracted can be funny cause it wont match the post title at all!

I'm currently still adding in more blogs to my list. Feel free to explore the app if u haven't! :)

at 10:49 AM

打从第一天回到大学上课的日子
我就感觉在每个课程里迷失了方向
毕竟已经错过了最重要的 Week 1
最后唯有仔细地读科目表
把每一个细节都笔记下来
我觉得现在拿的这5科的 assessment 都蛮费时费力
因为这样，因为不想再错过更多
我更加下定决心
不能迟到，上课专心听讲，全力做好功课
为的是，拿好成绩

坦白说，我上两个学期的成绩有明显的退步
曾经因为连续每个 weekend 都在打工
搞到我 quiz 没读好，功课赶到一个极点
后来姐姐的一句话提醒了我
她劝我暂时放下我打工的念头
毕竟在踏入读书最后一年功课会开始比较重
还是应该在学业上保持我的水准

其实，她说的很对
内心的我看到自己的成绩退步也感觉不满
因为这样，我的坚持果然让我在目前的每堂课上专心上课，准时上课，而在功课上做好 research
这些无形中是一种压力
我竟然每晚睡前都失眠
闭上眼脑海里就出现功课限期和必须和组员讨论的种种问题
但这一切在今晚总算大部分的问题都已解决

今天很临时的我们安排时间与 research tutor 开会
他很尽心的批评和帮助我们改良在我们所设计的 research 上的错误
我们都很开心听到他对我们的设计称赞，只是需要在一些细节和基础上更改
无论是时间或人物，
却会让我觉得是上帝在为我扶持
因为这一切发生的时间感觉就象被安排似的
今天的我感觉很幸会

近来的家里气氛感觉很和谐
但每人藏在内心的苦又有谁会特别提出
我想减轻家里的负担，多抽出时间陪家人特别是妈妈
家家有本难念的经
重复争吵一个问题是我从小到大每隔一段时间都会发生的事
也因为这样
我明白问题的出现最好是立即互相坦白商量和处理
否则它将成为以后更大更多的问题
如何解决这已久的问题，我不知道
但现在的我
很想赶快毕业，
到社会工作，
打拼一个自己的事业，
让父母享受人生

在这天的来临之前，
我最想保持我的乐观
做好自己本分

at 1:49 AM

I'm back to blogger finally! The past 2 months have been nothing except a short getaway to Langkawi and the internship program. All these occurred one after another as soon as my final exam ended, which explains the feeling of restless being stuck in me for quite some time. Honestly speaking, I didn't have the chance to work on in depth tasks throughout my intern period. But from the overall experiences, I realized this industry somehow fit me perfectly. It actually involves the research methods that I studied in psych! And I believe my interest in understanding people and pattern of behavior does lead me to this industry as well, which was also why I chose psych from the start. Cant believe I'm looking forward graduation already... haha at least at this moment.

It feels like many friends around me have all gone overseas for further studies. Right after the day we sent off the uni mates, it's unbelievable to see MORE people whom I know were flying off one by one. It's strange that this thing actually hit me hard that I've been thinking about it every night before bed this week. Anyway, second week of class seems all good so far. I'm determined to not to be late to class and to stay awake. Though I missed the first week of lectures, things like timetable and books are all fully in control now. I foresee a hard time rushing due dates almost every week. 4 psych subjs can actually considered as heavy depending on what subject they are. But the 5 that I'm taking currently is no joke I guess? Looking at the assessments, I see a lot of trouble and problem coming. Hopefully the girls in my team are all geared up! :D

I didn't realize I have been earning through my hard works in the past one year plus. One day while I was taking train to work, I notice everything, everything on me was spent on myself. Well except the shoe and bag were my bday present. Weird that I didn't feel proud, the feeling was just no words to describe. I'm happy for my parents. Guess they would too.. But at this moment, I'm starting to feel end-of-world and a lil terrified when I notice this month will be my last income coming in. Looking at the due dates in my diary makes me doubt whether I would have enough time and energy to go for part time. Which my sister strongly recommended me not to. I know my limit, but this wouldn't stop me from considering the alternatives I have. People may disagree with this but I'm a strong believer in nothing is impossible as long as we want it to be. Our will is one strong element yo.

Those kind of sum up the thought and feelings I have currently. Will be coming back more frequent! Good day ahead to everyone at diff corner of the world. :)

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)