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at 12:51 AM

I sat for my intro to psych paper today. I think I have really underestimated the paper. I thought I wouldn't have to worry about my objectives at all because in foundation, the objective questions are quite straight forward. But today, I feel that I failed myself. An hour before the exam, I realized there are more examples, more application compared to just facts in textbook. So when I flipped over the first page of exam paper, I cold sweated. The questions were all so familiar, but not the answers (wtf). Reasons because I slept through every lessons and didn't have sufficient time to even glance through the entire notes before the exam.

While I struggled through the objectives, looking at the essay questions later felt like dragging myself to hell immediately. I tried to stay calm anyway, and just split out whatever that I know. I couldn't even remember the psychology terms that describe the situation. Sigh... ;(

Lesson learnt: I must not sleep in lectures again! I'm so gonna fight 99 in finals!

at 6:47 PM

I'd always impressed with people who spend from whatever they earn. Although at this age, we barely able to survive sort of live independently in terms of financial yet, but there are people who already able to make big money. I truly believe that determination and believing the right thing till the end is the way to make one success in the pathway that he/she has chosen. Everyone has a belief, but what you believe matters alot. If you believe that you can do it, you will put in efforts and at the end of the day, your dream will be achieved despite the duration that you took. On the other hand, people who believe that they cannot do it will never proceed or make effort to make the dream happen. Agree? It's just something innate that we all have in nature. Great leaders are not born. They can succeed in life and get respected by people in the society because they are willing to put in effort and fight for what they want. Very often, great leaders and good speakers tell us about how to succeed in life and what not. Many attended, but how many of all audiences do click with the points and make changes in their life after the long hours of speech? A handful of them maybe. Question is, out of these handful of people, how many of them give up trying? At the end of the day, maybe one or two people eventually succeed for the efforts and time that they had paid off.

I do realize that there are people around who may not be as fortunate as me, who comes from a moderate family background. I may not seem to appreciate things I had at times, but I do wish I was capable to afford materialistic things that I want. Earlier, I do not have goals in life. But there was once, I attended a seminar. The speech delivered by this speaker strike hard onto my brain. Ever since then, I start figuring out what I want in life. And today, I know my goals! However, we tend to lose the focus as time passes. The other day, my lecturer talked about the difference between dream and dreaming. He says, a dream remains as a dream forever if there is no efforts done. Then this, is call dreaming on. We all know it well but this gives another hit on my back again.

To end this, I wanna share quotes from the speakers of my freshmen lunch last week. They say,

"It is not about what we don't have, it is about to make full use of what we have".
"We have to be determined in order to succeed; when we succeed, feel proud of the achievement".

A student can make a huge difference. Education is part of it, but there's something more than just that. Set your goals today! (;

at 2:27 AM

My valentines day back then was receiving little gifts from friends in school. This year, I got to celebrate this special day with my love. To be frank, my b is kind of a straight forward person. He only make surprises once in a blue moon. Whatever he had in his mind, I tend to be able to know. Sometimes he even split out the entire plan before d-day arrives. At the end of the day, instead of being surprised, I'll be looking forward awaiting for the events.

For me, V day should be set just another ordinary day. As couples or lovers make celebration, it may be a reminder of bad experiences, or loneliness to other people. Why do we have an event as a reminder of love, when everyday can be a valentines day? The more emphasis it has, the lesser its meaning is being conveyed. People may just give and receive gifts because everyone is doing the same thing and it is like a must-do on this day. Don't worry, I have no issues against v day, these are just my perception. ;)

So, this year d-day falls on a monday. As usual, we have classes till noon and headed off to KL right after. We were stuck in a massive jam for quite long, going round and round the area. We only settled down at 4pm. At dinner time, we dined in delicious restaurant located at Jalan Tun Razak. The food was very satisfying because that was our first meal of the day .__.

B spent a heck lot of cash that day just to fulfill the dream that is yet to be achieved in the future. Really, it had me thinking for many nights. He never want me to be tired of work. He wants me to just enjoy life, with everything that he could give. Baby you've been pampering me too much all this while! And because of this, there's always a strong urge in me that strives me to do something more.

Anyways, I came home very late that night and that marks my first valentines day. How was yours? :)

at 9:28 PM

Heluu world.

I think we should have been given one and a half weeks of holidays. At least the resume of classes on the fifth day of chinese new year wouldn't chase away the enjoyment of the festival. Anyways, my second day of class was horrible. Because of what? I freaking slept through the whole 2 hours session of my favourite lecturer's class. It's not about just guilty, but feeling blank and blur as well. I tried so hard to maintain my fishing, and kept my eyes half-opened. Unfortunately, my eyelids were too heavy that I had to shut down my brain, my eyes, my ears and went into my own dreamland of psychology. Pretty sad. On top of that, midterm will be here in about two weeks time. Pfft, emo-ness...

The fifth week having classes in new block, I think I have adopted a new learned phobia. (whatthehell?) Of what? Of toilets. I'm fcuking disgusted about it. Imagine tiny little toilet flies doing their landing on any parts of your body while you're doing your business. Seriously, what's wrong with the toilet flushes?

I came home yesterday and slept like a dead till the next morning. Wednesday is a college day where I can just go in class with my water bottle. The happiest part is, the lecturer tend to end the lesson VERY early. Nice, but students will feel that it's a waste of time to go for the class. Haha whatever. I Love Wednesday! ;)

I'll be a busy bee this weekend. Replacement class, freshmen lunch, open house, house visits. Give me a break my god! X( Right now I'm so semangat to finish up my skeleton assignment. Been working on it since afternoon, but no progress made. Well, time to really focus.

Have a great week ahead! :)

at 2:21 AM

Sometimes I do feel like I'm a burden to people around. Even to the dearest... How come? :'(

at 1:09 AM

When I laid on bed last night, I thought of how powerful love is. It is the motivation and inner power to complete tasks. It is the scarification that we are willing to pay off. Sometimes, it can even transform a person into another brand new person. Agree?

Anyways, it's CNY eve today! Every year, my mama never fail to prepare lunch and dinner on this reunion day. But this year, mama wanted to take a rest from preparing dinner at home after a long day of cleaning the house. So, we dined in this restaurant where it was almost a full house yet the food was seriously, yucks. Must be because there were too many customers but limited time for the chefs to prepare each dish. That's why the food turned out not nice. Lesson learnt! :)

My chinese new year mood is burning right now because! of! FOOD! ANGPAOs! & DRESSING UP! ;) Have a great day ahead too peeps!

兔年一起HUAT啊!!!

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)