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at 1:29 AM

Oh yeah, my holidays started officially yesterday. I wanted to blog every night but my fingers felt so lazy to move and of course, to recall everything! This post was inspired by jass actually, after reading her long updates all the way in Perth!

First final exam in degree was rather scary cause I didn't have the ohm to do my revision at all. I tried so hard to sit and really read, but my concentration kept loosen off. Until the first day of exam was really hitting me, I could feel the tension and studied like bullet train. Overall, my finals was consider fine despite my grandpa passed away in the middle of the exam period.

We may feel regretful but sometimes, it's really fated. I remember that night my parents went kelam kabut getting ready clothes & documents before we made our way to my uncle's house at Setapak. Of course, I was going to sit for my third paper the next day but I just couldn't fully concentrate. At 11pm, I brought along my laptop and notes I made and there we go. I came home around 5am and continued the remaining lecture notes. Slept for 2 hours then off to college the next morning.

My exam ended at 2pm and I headed back to Setapak right after. I was almost dead sleepy that afternoon due to the super hot weather and the stuffy surrounding at my uncle's house. Still, I hold my notes in hand, insisted to study despite nothing really goes in my brain. In the evening, the ceremony thingy started. Every session took up 30 minutes and followed by a 30 minutes break then. I struggled so much as I haven't even started reading anything for my last paper the following day. Lucky enough the exam was at 5pm, which meant I had more time to prepare. Similarly, I came home around 4am, taken a nice shower & continued my reading immediately.

That midnight I was almost deprived from sleep, thus, I dozed off to sleep at 6am. In fact, I only completed the first part of my study, out of four! 2 hours later, my mum woke me up to study again. My eyes did not want to open, kept on fishing in front of my laptop. I went down to have some cereals to freshen up myself instead. At 11am, I went to my room looking at the comfy blanket on bed, I finally contempt. Around 12ish, I jumped up from sleep and started study like mad! The clock was ticking and I'd gotta rush. I screened through everything, then only memorized them by repetition hoping that everything stays right inside my brain. At 7pm, exams over!

Huge relieved but I didn't feel excited. Rushed back to Setapak and didn't had a proper dinner as I was late for the ceremony. The ceremony made everything even saddening. On the last day, I did fine. At the end of the day, we hold back the memories and move on. On top of that, my grandpa was really old and has been suffering from sickness for years. I guess it's a relief for him and for us as well. May you rest in peace, grandpa.

at 4:48 PM

I clicked on one of my older posts randomly yesterday and that one click couldn't stop me from reading further more. I started this blog in early 2008. Looking back at my blog achieves, it is not so bad cause I practically did update every month. (No idea why I skipped 2008's Christmas month & 2009's Valentine's month XD) So while I was reading through some of the posts, they really triggered my memories.

When SPM was reaching its end.

All sorts of activities in Cempaka

And of course all sorts of outings that I had with friends. I remember how difficult it was for us to go out due to transport problem. LOL, it's seriously funny when I think back XP

My first ridiculous & shortest post about him! Something happened AHAHA!
His 19th birthday plans - Part I & Part II
First V Day & so on...

This is my second or third blog, if I'm not mistaken. Previous ones had been deleted and I can't even remember the links I'd used. I wish I didn't delete them off last time coz, it's really nice knowing how naive I were, every single events that happened, the style & languages of my writing, and the funniest of all, the way I think back then.

I can't deny the truth that things had changed alot compared to last time. Time, friendship, life, etc... I know we couldn't turn back time and keep everything back in place, but faith and improvement are all we need.

Blogging is indeed a smart way to keep things not fade away. You know, our brain has limited memory space! :D

at 6:24 PM

I find Google's homepage today so cute and so cool ! I thought the play button is just a decoration, who knows it can really play!

Anyways,

I went to bank this morning to get my visa debit card done. I was asked several times about my age and each of them thought I was only 16. They were shocked to know that I'm actually already 19. Does it mean I look immature? Or it means I look young? I don't know which, but one thing for sure is that I look really noob all time in the bank till the card was ready. Even my saving book is of Maybank Yippie version, which was for budak category .___. Fortunately, the officers were kind of funny. They can be so random talking to each other while getting the process done at the same time. It does not only create an informal environment, but also a friendly environment to us, the customers. One of them asked bout the course I'm taking. When I say I'm in psychology path, their eyeballs went big (O___O) and ejek, "ohhh pandai lah, boleh psycho orang dah, especially psycho ur mama to sign cheques". Haha, totally speechless. Then, I got to know the basic salary for a clerk in a bank, which was really really low. That's the fact.

I seriously think that it's time for me to learn how banking works, the basic ones of course. I don't wanna feel noob in bank anymore.

It took about an hour to get the procedure done. Then mama wanted to get a new pair of shoes so we went into the mall opposite. At the end of the day, she bought shoes, pants, and a belt while I got only a tiny hair clip for myself. BUT I spotted a pretty pretty cool sunglasses selling at a cheap price! Definitely going back there to get it for myself soon! ;D

On the way back, we spent another an hour plus in saloon. Finally got my khatulistiwa-like hair trimmed! But as what baby says, trim or no trim, there's always not much difference. Now I'm finally home, taken my shower, and feeling so emo again.

I GOT TO SERIOUSLY START MY STUDY IMMEDIATELY!

I will be the 宅女 tonight, while baby will be the 宅男! Muahahaha XD

at 6:51 PM

今早天刚亮就从睡中吓醒

赶快看了电话的时间，竟然已是7点!

失望了几秒

然后赶快传简讯给茉莉花小姐

祝福她一路顺风，平安抵达Perth

本来有一件超可爱的温暖围巾想让她一起带去的

想到昨晚要去她家看看临离开前的她时顺便pass给她

谁知她和家人去吃晚餐了

然后因为昨晚竟然没有set alarm

结果连原本凌晨的计划也一起失败

加上昨晚睡前的事情

搞到我电脑没关，脸没洗牙没刷就躺在床上睡着

更气的是我竟然发梦到我最要好的‘朋友’! S N A _ _

早上传讯后就整个EMO到死

最后赖床到下午1点才肯下床洗脸

在厕所里发呆了几分钟

对自己的生活觉得无奈

有很多梦想，很多想法，但缺了方法去达成

然后又想了感情方面，

家里的压力，

私人的思想，

自己的态度与脾气等

总之就有四面八方来的问题

到最后

我想到了Mr Kenneth课程时的一句话

因为还没了解自己的需求，又怎样去了解和完成其他人的需求呢?

可能是我自己也还不清楚自己要的是什么吧

站在窗前擦干脸时，望到了窗外蓝蓝的天空

我的motivation又回来了

我总是会为了很多很多的烦恼而烦

但很庆幸的是

烦了之后

我会从新收拾心情

告诉自己

我可以的

I say can, when I say I can

有对的mindset真的是很重要的

大半天又这样过去了

下星期开始考finals

连翻书的心情都不在

压力好大!

我说茉莉花小姐啊

到了那里不要顽皮叻

好好读书

知道你满喜欢摄影的

要常常upload照片好让我们可以8

有什么心里的想法就去部落格里发泄

好让我们可以知道你在那里的情况嘛

毕竟msn & skype是不够的

记得好好照顾自己!

我竟然想念你了;____;

at 10:19 PM

I have plenty of flashbacks recently. Mr Kenneth's lecture reminded me of my childhood; Mr Arthur Yap reminded me of life; and life, reminded me of time, chances, dreams, and things I used to favour back then.

Today I had a great chilling session with two college friends in library while waiting for our research methods class to begin. We talked about many random stuffs. But the question of studying overseas strike me again. My parents would mostly give a yes if I proposed the idea to them. But it is me who keep this in consideration. Of course, money wise. They have invested a huge amount of money on my education. They put me in school that costed them a bomb. Yet, my academic was not excellent, also neither a sportsman nor leader. It's really depressing but well, it is still not too late to make my plan works.

On the other note, my passion on make up is back! I remember my ambition was to be a make up artist when I was eighteen. Hahah! Who knows now I'm stuck in psych~

I wanna be skillful in it. :)

at 2:37 AM

Aloha! I think people don't even bother much to visit my blog cause I haven't been posting new stuffs for weeks. But I'm finally updating now! So, read on! (:

The 'corned' hotel room XP

First of all, the Melaka trip was great! Except the fact that our journey was kind of too rush. Despite all the butt pains, muscle pains & maybe SUNBURNS?, I enjoyed alot over that weekend. Food was yummy, and I miss the beach! It'll be even awesome if I got wet in the sea. Aww, when will my dream comes true? Mid of the year people? *wink* Haha anyways, its been so long since I hang out with this gang of close people. Where did all the weekly outings go?

Last sunday, I was last minute informed by this awesome miss seah to be the model for her photography assignment. First time posing under the sun, & I realized I can't do modelling well. I can't smile naturally and nicely. Even when I smiled a little, I'll still somehow look frown .__. After completing the task, 3 of us went for a movie 'Just Go With It' at the mall nearby. I came home so tired and slept on the sofa. At night, I have this sudden cravings on western again! Papa brought us to Mahkota area, and we passed by this small Italian restaurant called Susan's Bistro. They have a variety of food choices, tasted yummy, and the price was reasonable and affordable. Definitely grabbing my fatty pig there to try on their cheesy spaghetti !

Next, I love driving alot. But I seldom got the chance to drive! People who drives complain that they want to be fetched, while people who do not drive complain that they wanna drive. The world is so complicated haha! There's only one and only one route that I'm most familiar with because that's the route I drive through every morning. I wanna own a car that I want, not a car that I need. Suzuki Swift used to be my dream car. But today, I find Mazda so cool & Kelisa so cute! My papa says I drive like a 60-years-old grandma. But I say, slow & steady? (:

I have endless cravings on food recently. I feel hungry all the time! Guess I'm in the process of growing still. I can't stop filling myself with spice and hot soups. Oh my, this reminded me of the ABC soup that mama served during dinner yesterday. Besides that, I had pan mee 4 times last week yet it does not fulfill the cravings. I still want more, till baby give up convincing me to stop having it. Oh slrrp slrrp! >:)

Lastly, I wanna tell something.

There's a girl,

She can be so simple,

yet pretty.

She's so unresistable.

I'm getting crazier over her!

She's the god!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)