A Place to Tell.

stories to share.

at 2:22 AM

I had dinner with my family at a restaurant near Bukit Bintang. While heading to the restaurant, I was so curious at one point when the crowd infront of us made their u-turn towards us. We didn't care much though. After taking few steps ahead, we saw something that, well I don't know how to describe it. It was a gang fight. A fight which involved more than just 20 people. A whole bunch of people supporting behind, while the front ones fought. My dad then hurried us to stay away from them. But, the scene actually left a big curiosity in me.

Because,

It actually reminds me of my brother. One night he came back home, with a blue black on his eye and minor injuries on his hands. He then told my mum that he fought with some random people near s.wang. Reason? Misunderstanding in eye contact. Fight over minor thing and end up, we injure. Does it worths at all? I don't think so. Remembered those days when he fought with my dad, when the family was going through a massive hard times, when my mum was stuck between husband and son. I see the hatred in my brother and the disappointment in my dad. Frankly speaking, I was living in fear everyday. Because, when they fight, they really fight.

I always thought that I have a warm family in which I'm so proud of when I was a small kid. But I was as if awaked from the beautiful dream when the fight took place, when my brother ran away from home. This happened when I was in form two. It happens all in sudden that I could hardly accept the fact. I cried almost every night, praying that everything would come to an end soon. Today, I'm so relieved that those days is already a past.

Coming back to the dinner.

It was a massive jam when we wanted to return home. I looked outside through the car window and observed the people around. I saw the night life of teenagers. They lepak around to spend off their time, usually at those happening places. What I saw was, exactly like what I've seen in the movie bohsia. The fighting part of the movie takes place at that area anyways. This gives me even more thoughts and curiosity on their life. But I know, it brings no good.

If I were given a chance to live in their lifestyle for just one day, and everything would resume back to normal the next morning, I definitely want to try. Because I think their life is cool, in a way.

ha ha.

Once you're in, it takes so much to quit again.

I keep this in my head for all time.

at 4:18 AM

Maths Olympiad and inter-house debate were today. Congratulations to seladang who had won debate in the first round. Keep it up in the finals! :)

I laid on my bed yesterday night, but hardly fall into my sleep. Then, this thing came across my mind. And tears flow out from the corner of my eyes. I never thought I would think this way. But yes, for our years of friendship, I doubted.

Am disappointed.

at 5:16 PM

A number of things have been bothering me lately. First, study. Then, the so called 'skin allergy'. Followed by your attitude. I've got so much to tell, so much to say. But the words hardly fit in. You never agree with my thought, and so, you never understand how I would feel. Neither me though.

That is why, I decide to stay away.

School today was not that great as I thought. Add maths and physics paper were a disappointment. Careless mistakes here and there ended up resulting in pulling my mark down. Not overall yet, but I could see the not-so-good results are coming back to me.

School and home. Neither one able to put a smile on my face. I'm just tired in pretending that everything is okay.

It has been a week. No, I cant take this anymore.

I need a place to chill. Anywhere?

at 10:31 PM

Had three lecture/talk from three different people today.

Early in the morning-noon-before school ends.

Haih. I feel real bad and sad now.

at 1:36 AM

F-I-N-A-L-L-Y, exams finished today! :) No more stressing through the whole damn night, at least for now. 3 more months to trials, yet my results are still maintaining in a horrible state. The disappointment from teachers, freak me out even more.

Hee. Wanted to take a picture of the board actually. But yeah,

In this photo: the cutest boy(left), the stress boy(right) :P

I'm so looking forward to the coming 2 weeks holidays! :D So much to do seriously! Well, I hope I have enough time for everything, as I heard that we are going to have extra classes again. Most importantly, my dear friends. We really really in need of an outing. And this is so a right time for a gathering ;)

I miss those days...

... and I miss you, Nic!

at 7:00 PM

Its Friday! Had all the heavy subjects on the past four days. Now, they are finally over. :) Paper 1s were all so far so good. Paper 2s/3s, no comment. Biology 3 was tough for the first time. Didn't even know the existence of that experiment. Sad, blame self. Same goes to maths 1. The questions were twisting here and there, but I managed to sort them out. I hope they were right? :) Sejarah, hahaha. I woke up 5 in the morning and studied Bani Umaiyah in a half-awake condition. The moment I flipped the exam paper, boom, there goes the first question. I've seen them before but nothing had been absorbed. The most geram-est paper so far.

Today is a happy day. ;D

For the laughter, thank you so much!

and, take it easy with my words. You know what I mean. :))

at 12:38 AM

70% out,

20% leisure,

10% study.

This concludes what I've done over the weekends. Exams are starting on this tuesday, yet I've wasted my quality time doing unnecessary things. How disappointing. The time now is exactly twelve thirty in the morning and I'm glad that I managed to finish the troublesome addmaths project, excluding the graph.

One word to describe my feeling right now - STRESS.

at 6:04 PM

I am so stress and afraid of this coming mid semester exam. My first mid exam results were so disappointing that it actually pulled down my grade and position in class. Not a bit but a very large gap compared to my previous results. Everyone is talking about this-our last cempaka exam. I wanna do well also lahh. ERGGH.

Anyways,

I had a date with my sister yesterday. We planned to go for a movie and then night market. So called to release stress. And so, we watched this!

Bohsia. It is a malay movie starring by our local artists. The movie is roughly about the life of mat rempits. Plus a bit of xxx scenes here and there. But of course, it has got its lesson behind. The title says it all: Jangan pilih jalan hitam. A must watch movie okay. Support Malaysia lah. :) After the movie, shopped around and bought myself a slipper. It has been months since I wanted to buy one. So satisfying haha. Then, went to the pasar malam in connaught. There were plenty of stalls with tasty food. But, too crowded. It was my first time been there anyway. Not bad ;) Then, back home and completed my english essay. So proud of myself. Wanted to give up, but I did not. :)

Now, I am happily blogging on this. Because the one and a half hour addmaths tuition has been cancelled. Due to the power blackout. Good timing :)

at 12:18 AM

The week started off with a busy frustrated Monday. Everything seemed so messed up today. Exams starting next week, and yet, a whole bunch of homework are given to us. I have been spending my wonderful Sunday finish up the bm homework. Then, here comes another TWO today. Watthehell. And also, the unnecessary work. Freaking pissed off. It's 12am now. I just taken my shower and going to start on my english essay. ERRGHH. I would rather have exams everyday.

It is a Tuesday tomorrow. So not looking forward laahh. :(

at 10:12 PM

I’ve fallen sick few days ago and the body immune system is still not back on track working good. The dizziness still comes back every now and then and it went bad after I banged my head accidentally on the door just now. Anyways, I am so grateful now that I’ve recovered and have realized how important health is. More exams are coming, and I don’t want to stay sick, failing to open the book and study. Twice of fever in 2 months time. I’m so enough.

Yesterday was talent time. The school events this year were all super packed that i think that was the reason why only a few students participated compared to the years before. Reached school a bit early as they wanted to show me the few changes that have made the day before. So yeah, practiced again and again that morning. Everything was really last minute. At backstage, while waiting for our turn, everyone was just tensed up. So nervous. Then, finally, it was our turn. Went up, and posed for surprisingly, almost 5 minutes before we even started. hahahah. Quite syok though. Overall, the mopsterz wrecked in their way. But nah, its okay. Not bad still. Technical problem only. :P

Today’s a labour day and also a holiday for us! :) Had phychem tuition at eeleng’s house this morning. I would prefer tuition in the morning, feels so good, so fresh to absorb everything. It is now exactly ten more days to go to mid semester exam. Homework not done, revisions not done. I’m once again, screwed. :(

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)