A Place to Tell.

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at 4:05 AM

Spent these two days cleaning up my closet. Deal with the messy shopping bags as well as bags! School stuffs, books and papers have been all kept and arranged nicely. The miserable thing is, the height of papers needs to be recycled are above my knee length. How to save the mother earth when the school is producing this much of papers on every student per year? Anyways, the cleaning job makes me sneezed all the way throughout the session and worst is, I got nose blocked when I go to bed. Great.

Kitchen has never been my place. Those who know me, I don't usually cook. Well maybe once in awhile when the mood comes, I'll help my mum for dinner. And even that hardly happen. Or unless I'm reallyyy hungry, instant noodles is the only thing I'll make for myself. Easy and fast, but? hahah yes, unhealthy. Surprisingly, I made sushi yesterday noon! I can tell, it was a total failure. Especially the rice! That was... pretty sad. Haha but honestly, I always liked to make yummy food. IF only I know how la. Jassss, amazingly u gave me a kick start to this. ;)

As of now, it's almost 4am. I've just taken rice for my very late dinner 4 hours ago. I feel, f-a-t. I'd bad appetite during SPM, and a week after the exam finished, I eat like mad. At ANYtime. I see food, I eat. Hmm, definitely bursting soon. My current shoulder-length hair is very memafankan. I wonder why it takes so long to grow. It's been a year AND still at that length. So I decided to not make any changes to it first. Gonna wait patiently till it grows longer.

Pfft. I still have that short essay waiting on my list. I'm sooo lazy to start. Anyways, hopefully I'll go for the 6hours course by next week.

Aight, off to bed. ;)

at 2:23 AM

The brother is going for march intake so while waiting for the time to come, my dad offered him a job nearby his working place. And UNEXPECTEDLY, my dad said THIS to me during dinner.

Dad: So u wanna go for a part-time ...

I heard the word 'part time' and I went O.O All stunned. Because I never dare to even mention this ever since my first working experience last year though the working thing come across my mind every now and then. The next second I answered with disappointment,

'my course starting on 4th of JANUARY laaaaa.'

Haha my bad for not telling him. My dad still thought I'm going for the march intake. I feel like a waste, for his offer. Cause starting college so soon wasn't my plan at all before this. Anyhoo, I think it has got its benefits too. So yeah. On the happier side, I got to know that my dad actually allow me to go for work again. Another thing is, I'm glad he allow me to go for psych field in future. muahaha tat's more than enough. I'm happyyy. ;D Thank youu, papa!

My hair is looking so messy already. Needa do something with it as soon as possible. I miss my long hair so much seriously. Anyways, the shopping plan tomorrow is cancelled due to @#$%^& reason. Another boring day I guess. I did some cleaning on my stuffs today. And I realize I'm goooood in throwing unwanted/old things. haha X)

I got a call from jasssumin all the way from sabah just now! haha aww, I felt loved. Can't wait for 31st! X)

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL !

at 2:48 AM

I haven't been in a right mood recently. Ever since prom night. I'm getting bored and so frustrated with whatever I'm doing everyday. I need something productive. Like, a vacation. Which probably not in my parents list. I seriously miss those days when I was a kid. I would live the simplest and easiest life among all, not worrying and thinking of this and that, AND getting stuck with problems. Like now. So fking annoying. Honestly, I'm tired of taking the first step. I just need them to be the one. The one who ask, the one who concern. Because right now, it makes me feel different from the others. All this while I never complain. I tolerate, and did my best to understand. But sometimes, I'm just so sick of whatever that's going on.

Anyways,

College starting on 4th of jan. Which is way too soon for me. Imagine la, its just a week plus away! Anyways, I'll get to meet new faces there. muahaha so I'm looking forward at the same time. ;) I have massive insomnia for the past few nights. It was plain torture. Thinking back, I feel stupid. Because I should have awaken from the dream long time ago. I hope its not too late though. :)

Oh btw,

I passed! the undang test ;D But I know, I'm still way too far for that driving license. Ergh, I need you like seriously! You're so tempting lah. But still, I've to WAIT. Sad.

Christmas is only 2 days away, and I'm stuck here with such situation. Gooood timing.

at 1:58 AM

I've finally made my decision. No regrets, hopefully. :)

Tell me I was wrong.

Because I'm tired of living this shyt life.

at 2:46 AM

Prom night was greeat. Indeed a memorable night for all of us. The place and the people, all looked good and hawt. Thanks for the night! Not to mention, I received a heart-warming message from Etee all the way in hongkong on that day itself! Aww u got me almost tearing girl! Glad that u're back now. We shall move on with our long-listed outings. hehe XD

I was supposed to sit for my test this morning. Woke up early just for that very last revision. But the uncle called and I was told that the computer system was down. So the test is postponed to next week! Should I say lucky or unlucky? Anyhoo, I can say it's a good thing. Instead of getting back into my sleep, my mum asked to follow her for breakfast. And then to the market. The aunties... make me feel 'hot'. XD

Sigh, I'm feeling so lifeless at home.

at 3:19 AM

Mission completed! haha after hours of walking, she finally found a dress that suits her! muahaha and im so dead tired x.x The crowd in the mall brings me back to the memories - my working days! It was exactly during christmas month! aww. Then I saw something that reminds me of the peak hours those days when we rushed in and out of the store room with the stuffs all in hands! I seriously do miss that feeling now. And of coz, the two friends! One in JB and another hohoho, pregnant already. Haih, I really miss themmm!

Well,

I HOPE I'll start cleaning my books tomorrow. and get ready for the test next week.

at 3:28 AM

hahaha our apartment party was a success! So together, so memorable. I swear, so many plans were cancelled out just like that because of this and that. I'm already missing my friends! and the moments we had in kl. From PS3ing to having 'snow'time in pavilion, dinner together to swimming in the pool at 12am, having champagne on our hands at the pool side to twister-ing ourselves in twister, having super late supper to playing master mind to kill our sleeping time, going gym at 7am to having simple yet yummy breakfast prepared by mr ko, first time photobooth-ing infront of a machine to opening the early christmas pressie! and the list goes on and on! We should have taken more pictures. I miss every little things there now, like seriously.

I might not look like, but deeply I'm so scared. Because I don't know whether we'll stay as close as this in the future. Prom is coming real soon. And it makes me feel more like our last meet. Well prom... leng couldn't attend. Another absent. This happens everytime! Should I just say, fate?

Anyways, I'm grateful enough for us coming back home safe and good. To be honest, I always feel as if I'm the youngest among the group and have big brothers and sisters taking care of whenever I complain. Thank you for all that. I felt loved. I apology if I've said anything heart aching. Love you! :)

So today, I bought my prom dress and all. Quite satisfy and glad that I found one. And tomorrow spending another day out again. AND on sunday, there we go jasssss! I just couldn't wait. Have been staying outside the house since spm end. I really need to clean my books soon. SPM makes me feel disconnected with many people. I still owe them an outing. Not to mention, my dad is already asking me to learn driving as soon as possible. They say the exam is easy, but it feels like another spm for me.

You might know, you might not know. It has been too long, that I don't understand my feelings anymore. And I don't know to tell the truth is a right decision. Because either way doesn't seem like a solution to me. That's the reason I stay. And letting it go with the flow. If you feel something, no doubt, its you.

It's 3 in the morning and I wish I was in my sweet dreams now. hmm.

Nights!

at 2:28 AM

I'm speechless. Totally speechless. I wanna escape from this complicated thinking even just for a little while. I'm seriously going insane!

*deeeeeep breathe*

Physics over, left chemistry. Our final goal! I... really couldn't remember how I've gone through this. My eyes are superb tired nowadays. I looked into the mirror the other day, and I noticed how much my eyes have changed. Baaaaaad changes. Haih.

So today,

New moon and lunch with friends. The movie is awesome. Jacob is just way too hot! and this is so much nicer than the first series. Hmm awaiting eclipse. ;D Oh, the ticket seller was such a cute boy too! HAHAH

The one day out at least makes me feel so much better than staying at home with books. I hate myself for not letting the past to be a past. It still come across my mind no matter how hard I try to not think of it. Ish, why la? Torturing myself only.

Alright. Hopefully I'll really study tomorrow. 3 days left! Then I couldn't imagine what's gonna happen next! WEEEE!

Nites people!

at 9:07 PM

I didn't realize at all that today is already 1st of december. Wooh, I can't wait any longer for shopping! haha so many things I wanna get for myself, but I need $$$. Sometimes I feel so silly because when I got the cash, I'll end up not spending them. I'd just save 'em up instead. That's why I always fail to cross out my wants list. Such a pity right. hahaha AND, christmas is coming soon! Let's see if our dreams can be fulfilled this year? ;)

SPM started so soon, and now its almost to the end now. 9 down, and I've got two more subjects to go! Accounts is a greaaaaat disappointment today. I don't know wtf I was doing. Easy, but ............. yeah, no excuses. Physics is on thursday. But I barely able to concentrate on my study anymore. The disappointment really pulled me down. effffff!

1 week to freedom? yay.

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)