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at 11:02 PM

Hi peeps! I'm finally blogging. haha :)

I've been really busy with assignments. Thank god they're now officially over. Exactly one more week till final, and that's the end of my foundation course! Seriously, exams have not even started but outings have already well planned. HAHA, thats normal isn't it? Anyways, november has been a real tough month for me. There are so many november babies! I mean, one of them is enough to make me broke. But, I have three of them all in this month.

First was my college friend, Min's birthday. Had a simple outings at mv right after our last midterm exam day. Not to mention also that I had my first ghost movie in theatre with them. haha~ Next is dearest papa's and followed by yan's birthdays. Although these made a huge big hole in my wallet, luckily I've my baby♥ to support my financial crisis. Another way is that I've been cutting down my expenses on food recently.

Just when I'm having my down time, YES is here! DAMN, I'm in serious dilemma now. Keep me away from mall. Otherwise, I'll suffer much since I have no cash with me yet I have BIG craving on accessories, heels, dresses, shirts, and so much more currently! t______________t Helppppp, anyone?

And u know what's the best part of all these?

I smell cash flowing out like river water again next month! Anyhow, I'm seriously looking forward the genting trip, christmas party, and new year eve! *WINK*

Can I have more pocket money papa? :)

at 12:41 AM

People get together and break up. Previously, when this happens to my friends, all I could do is hold their back and let them express themselves. At least they would feel better after so. But deep down my heart, I don't really know how hurtful it is. Everyone has different stories in life, same does relationships. Perhaps that is why I don't understand. One thing I know for sure is that letting go someone you love is tough but its possible to happen. People say it takes time to heal.. because only that could enable us to keep thinking, and eventually willing to accept the fact as day passes by. One fine day, we'll look back at how shitty we were at that point, and laugh at the naiveness we had. These are just part of the process that we go through in life.

The feeling of falling in love can be so dramatic, so lovely, that everyone like how it feels. For me, falling in love can be so angelic and torturing. The unsure feeling of how someone feels towards ourselves makes us think even more. The more we avoid thinking of it, the more frequent he/she will pop in and out of our mind. It may have enabled me to live in fantasy and dream a little, but honestly, I hated those feelings.

I'm happy that I don't have to feel that way anymore. I'm in love and need not to wonder around how he feels about me. But no matter how stable a relationship is, there will always be fear, doubts, and arguments. These are good to happen, but not too much and too aggressive. I don't want either of us get hurt. Because I know it will take us forever to let go.

Not to worry, my friends. Everything's fine. This post is just my random piece of thoughts. ;)

at 11:49 PM

I attended a funeral at night yesterday. In the evening, I received a call from jassie telling that he passed away. Of cancer. I brought along laptop, and off to eleng's house with b to meet up with others immediately. I was fine till I reach Nirvana.

I mean, when I received the call, I was shocked. We just left school a year, and things happened. I remember his lame jokes always squeezed us a little, especially when he gives out tips for exams. In his class, not much of us paid attention. But whenever we approach him, he is so wise to explain to us.

Standing next to the coffin, I had lots of flashbacks. I broke down. Haven't got the chance to meet him in person after we left school, and I never thought I would have to pay my last respects to him today. Besides that, it also reminds me of my grandma.

For me, I never realize until something hit me. To be honest, I'm quite afraid deep down. Maybe because I heard of too much things about death recently. I don't wanna wake up in the morning and receive another call like this. I wanna live to the fullest while I'm still alive. I wanna make less arguments, more tolerant and appreciate people for who they are.

Rest in peace, Mr. Tan.

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)