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at 7:53 PM

My 17th birthday celebration was a blast. My best-est celebration by far. Had a wonderful day out with my lovely friends in Pavilion on Saturday, and another steamboat night at home with my dearest family the following day. Not to mention also, the phone call from him. :)

We were late for an hour (whose fault? *Ahem* ;P) and made peng and jiayong waited us there. haha, but I guess you both had a great time together, right? ;P We first went to the apple shop to get the costly earphone for itouch that junkit wanted. Then, had our early dinner at TGI Fridays.

And, here comes the wrecking part.

We were almost done with our food, and all in sudden, a server shouted something so loudly, with a plate on his hand. I actually thought that something emergency happened! Later, that server slowly made his way towards our dining table and asked for the birthday girl. And, I was totally... stunned! Because I knew that I would have to give a speech the next minute, standing on a chair! As expected, I was told to go up.

You know, I felt so embarrassed high up on the chair, not knowing what to do, and at the same time, speechless. All these ended up with a wrecked speech. I wish I could do this all over again, with a proper speech! I freaking wrecked it to the max. Plenty of eyes watching, and ears listening, I just wanted to get down from the chair as soon as possible that moment. The most unforgettable moment was, the requires part!GRRR! After the speech, I was required to blow the candle from a distance at where I stood.

Four blows, and the candle blew off. Thank god. Then, I went back to my sit with a big relieved. We left the place after finishing the chocolate ice-cream cake provided. :)

Shopped around for a short while, then proceeded to Baskin Robin for desserts and junkit recommended this chocolate fondue to us. While waiting for the fondue to be served, I opened the present given by jiayong on the spot!

I had so much curiosity on what's inside the huge reddish box. A little nervous as well.

Still peeking!

My VERY first reaction after opening. Sorry :/ you know why I did that right :)

Done with the letter and teddies. Here comes the heavy box. I was told by eeleng that it's a box of chocolate! >E Look at the expression on my face. LOL :S

But of course, I did not trust her fully. :P

And finally, the outcome!

Couldn't stop myself from saying ohmygod. It was just so out my expectation! ;D

By that time, here comes our fondue! It finished so fast! That I only managed to eat two ._.

Us with the fondue! & pressie :)

It was almost 8pm by then. Walked around again and we took a memorable picture there!

It's a chinese word 'home' behind us! <3

Then, here's another unexpected surprise. They secretly informed the band people who was performing in Pavilion to sing me a birthday song without my realization at all. And after all this unexpected events, my tears fell from my eyes eventually. My feelings just jumbled up that I lost my words at all.

We left Pavilion to eeleng's house at 8-ish. Then, had another muffins session there! Wooh, proudly presented by jasmine! tQ, baaaah! :) A short while later, my parents came and I went back.

And,

these are for me! :'D

muffins with whipping cream :)

handmade photo album from PENG! <3

i likey the wrapping, by mr.lam :)

the 晴天娃娃 from yan! Somehow, it works! hahah psycho XD

the ESSAYS from TEL :P

Last but not least,

the very-thick photo album from jiayong, which reminds me of our good old times! i love! tQ!

All I wanted to say is,

Thank you so much for the memorable day, for the plans, for the lovely presents, and for the efforts. I've never expected my big day would turned out so perfectly, like seriously. From the embarrassing moments to the surprises and lastly, to all the handmade pressies. I felt touched, I felt loved.

p/s: If you were there with us, I'm sure we would have more than just 100% of fun! ;) I LOVE you all to bits!

at 12:13 AM

CAS Award is really driving me crazy. I've put so much hope on this. I was over confident that I never thought I would slipped off. Today, when I knew that I am not in the list of Top Tenth Percentile 2008, my worry just increased to its maximum. Afraid that I'm not qualify again for the award this year. Then, disappointment comes in. I kept thinking of this that I barely concentrate on Mr.V's lesson. Same goes to Canadian Mathematics Competition, I'm just one more question away to distinction. Because of this one mark, I lost a certificate and 75 points to be added into my academic session. I wonder why am always a step away from succeeding. It's so near, yet so far.

We had Chemistry Quiz today. It was tough. In fact, we should've know the solution for every questions. Because they're all covered before. Somehow, no revision's done. So, the easy questions ended up turning into difficult ones. After finishing the test, my mood has turned slightly down actually. Just couldn't bear with my mistakes. That makes me even worried of my SPM.

Birthday is two days away. I don't know why but there's always a feeling of disliking the day to arrive. But of course, when family and friends celebrating with us, we feel just more than enough. As for this year, they wanted to make a day out for my celebration. I was happy, glad, touched when I heard they actually planning for an outing on my big day. But when all sorts of problems occur, it's really frustating and memafankan. That I would just choose to cancel it. I'll just let it go with the flow.

Studies, am so worried and depressed on. I need guidance. Anyone?

at 11:33 AM

Amazingly, I woke up at 8 just now. Had breakfast at Mcd with mummy after sending my sister to her friend's place. Accident happened few days ago, and now, again she's out to genting with old pals. Seeing the scratches on her shoulder, I feel the pain in me. Blaah. So she'll be back tomorrow night. A good chance for me to focus on my study actually. Because when she's around, I'll do the talking more than spending time on my book. But because of this also, my dad decides to go back hometown after my tuition at night later. Errgh!

On a side note,

I was so freaked out yesterday. All thanks to my bad memory, I couldn't remember where the hell I keep my FAME ticket at. The only thing I remembered was, I brought it to my room. I gorek-ed evverrything in my drawer, flipped through every single book on the table, still, no shown. And guess where I found it at last? In my F4 sejarah textbook! whatthehell.

My blog has been so dull these days. No pictures but millions of wording. So, I'll end this post with a picture instead! :)

This explains why people don't see us as sister but friend.

Books, here I am again.

at 12:23 AM

Yesterday was RAG Day. A day where I've learnt how to make flowers using tissue paper(taught by Pn. Nor!). The day started off with an unpleasant morning. Only finger counts of students came to school for my class, the others absent. Things have gone worst when 4 of us were late for accounts class due to the interact meeting. Which makes Pn.F went even benggang. I'm quite pity for her actually. I could see the efforts she put on her teaching. Especially to science class students. Somehow, we gave her a kind of feeling that her teaching is not well appreciated. She might have been rude when she speaks, she might have scolded us for unnecessary reasons, but after all, she is a teacher. And us as a student, respect is all we have to do. Fighting over her, or being not satisfied with her teaching wouldn't bring any benefits at all to us.

My dear friend,

if you happen to read this, this shows how we are concern about you. Yes, from all of us. It is nice to hear if you haven't given up yet. But just to let you know that, it's really saddening for us to see our friends slowly getting out of the track and lost their way. For the money our parents had invested on us, for their hope on us, for making them proud on us, I hope the day when we collect our results next year, no regrets would left behind. As a friend, I have no rights to control, but to give advise. We only hope you would understand. It is still not too late. Fighting alone may be tough, but it's a different story when people around you, when all your friends are working hard together. And, that is the power of influence in friendship.

at 8:00 PM

This was supposed to be blogged on tuesday. But due to the limited time on my hand and how hardworking I was, this has been saved as draft. So here it goes.

I was studying downstairs but was totally frightened when I heard my dad shouting to my sis on phone. I barely listened to his words though he was loud. Seconds later, he came down urgently. I asked him what exactly had happened. He told that sister had an accident. Immediately, I reached to my house phone and called her. The moment she picked up my call, I could feel the fear in her through her voice.

As of now, she is quite fine, no injuries everywhere else except on her right shoulder. The skin is a bit peeled off, caused by the safety belt as it has reached its maximum due to the momentum of the car when the accident took place. That night, I didn't have a chance to talk to her as the accident happened at midnight. By the time she came back home with dad at around 3am(after the procedures in police station), I have already gone into sleep.

Here's what exactly happened.

She was driving at a speed of 140km/h in the highway at Connaught, not to mention, it was a rainy day that night. When she wanted to slow down, she stepped on the brake panel. And this was the time when the entire car gone out of her control.

She took a few pictures of how damaged the car was. I was totally, speechless when I saw it. Four tyre spoilt, back of the car completely damaged(including the mirror and lights broken), and the engine at the front has actually dropped slightly down almost touching the road. What worst is, the car was facing the opposite direction of the road. Imagine how it spinned!

I thank god for only having the damages on the car and having her minor injuries, as well as not bringing in any other victims(passer-by & other vehicles). That paid off everything.

Somehow, I feel guilty. I did not give strong advise when she drives dangerously. Even when I really scold, I did that in a sarcastic way(as in teasing). Countless times she speeds, countless times she breaks rules on road, but again, she never take it seriously whenever we give advise. She's too used to the way she drives, I should say.

Actually, this is also part of the reasons why my dad never fail to worry of her when she goes out with her friends.

For me, I personally don't like her bunch of friends that she knew them in her working place last time. Too much of scandals, too much of incidents that had happened, just too much. I'm not being racist here. But most of those friends are either malays/indians. Sometimes, I seriously don't understand why she could be so attached to them. Most of all, these are the peoples that she always hang out till late night at those far places. She never learn the lessons, when my dad scolds her for coming home late, for not telling with who and where she is going to. I know, she is old enough to have her freedom. I think, she shouldn't have use this as an excuse. Because as a parent, they tend to worry about the safety of their children. But sadly, she never understand this.

I have always been standing on her side, supporting her, advising my parents on her situations. What I'm afraid is, I might take this no more some time later.

I'm hoping that, she'll understand and behave self in order to gain back the faith and trust that we've lost in her.

I'm sick of these shits.

at 11:19 AM

Yesterday was wooh, tiring to the max. All day out, only came back home at 11-ish. Anyways, am freaking relieved that oral test for CPE is over. I felt so embarrassed with my answers. That clearly shown that I haven't done much reading and concerned on what's happening around us everyday. But, what's over is over. Hopefully I wouldn't waste my parent's money on this.

While I was on my way back home yesterday, I thought of a whole bunch of things that happened in the past four years in school. The happy moments, nerve wrecking moments, crazy moments, emotional days, tension times, and the list goes on. I wondered, I regretted. Wonder how I managed to go through the hard times, regret for not knowing to appreciate the moments. So much things that I have gone through, without my realization. And now, I'm leaving school in few months. Then, that would be the end story of my high school. The most disappointing thing would be, I haven't achieved much accomplishments yet.

Okay. I shall have a proper post on this next time.

Sejarah, here I come.

at 11:23 PM

Well, CPE speaking test is tomorrow. I'm afraid I would wreck/tongue tied/brain frozen during the test. Thankfully, my partner is chiqin the sotong. Not that bad I suppose. hee :)

School after quarantined period is rather boring. Nothing much to blog about. Oh btw, I'm trying to go for CAS Bronze Award. Damn. Last year was indeed a disappointment. I hope I qualify this time!

Two days ago, I had an extremely pain on my legs. It's something like cramp, but not exactly like how painful it usually does. It hurts so much that I woke up every now and then in the middle of the night. Ergh, it's just too much of torture this year. The nerves on my hands and legs sometimes tend to get so painful to an extend that I would rather chop them off to escape from the pain. And it always disturb my sleep. What's happening to me lah? Sigh.

And now, my lips are burning. Wth.

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)