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at 10:31 PM

Note: I'm now blogging this for the sake of expressing out my own feelings. Like it or not, its my blog, my say. Thank you.

I was once a desperado and so spirited to win this. Like the others, I have been so looking forward it and even don't want it to end so fast. I am supposed to feel excited for tomorrow. However, I've lost hope. In just one day, the feeling has gone, completely. The attitude has brought me to a stage where I need to keep my focus away, then non-stop reminding myself to stay strong each time I saw the fun in you. The past few days, I see everything clearly. everything. I see the inner you. In fact, I've noticed that earlier. It hurts so bad that I never thought that this would happen, for the term 'friendship' especially. Question marks are all over my head. I don't understand. I don't see the point. You know, how hard I've tried. To not fight over again, to not think about it, to let it be that way. But today, if u were in my shoes, please do tell me, how would you feel. I swear, the oh-its-okay answer is definitely a lie. The backups, I don't see that. What I saw was just, selfishness.

As for tomorrow, I will still do my part to my best. But now, for me, to win or not, it does not really matters. Because after all, the victory belongs to you.

Disappointed. It best explains my feeling right now. I swear, tomorrow would be the last day. Then, this part would be taken off from my memories.

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)