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at 10:26 PM

Sigh. My emotion has been turning upside down lately. Plenty things are running in and out of my mind. If you were to ask whether im fine, I would say no, i'm not. Seriously not. People change as they grow. Perhaps that's what I'm undergoing now? Whatever it is, I don't see this as a good changes. I don't feel good, I'm not comfortable with it. But the truth is, I'm changing. The emotional days do come once in awhile. That's why all I need now is time. Time for me to think all over again, then find a best way to solve them.

I was happily living in my own world in the past few weeks, as if everyone else is invisible. Until the scoldings hit me, I was awakened. It's like someone whacked me real hard on my back that I woke up from my fantasy world. And that's when I realized that I've changed. There were so many tiny little things that I let them slipped off just because I didn't pay much attention on them. What's more when it is a once-in-a-lifetime thing. I hate myself for my selfishness, for being not understanding, for not being there when my family needed me most. I was thinking back, why didn't I fight hard. Why did I give up easily after one try. But I couldn't find any answers to those questions. Seriously, I failed. Regrets is the only thing that fills me up now. fuckshit. I wish I have time machine.

I was browsing through the net the other day out of boredom and the pictures of events in high school caught my attention all of sudden. I miss the good old times in school. Friends, the laughters we shared together and the naiveness in us. Everything single memories I have during school days, I miss them. Back then, we don't have much problems to worry of. What we did were, study and enjoy school days. Now that we have left high school days and stepping into college life, everyone is moving on in their separate ways. I used to say, I don't have good best friends. But now I'm proud to say, I have my soul mates with me. 5 years aren't a short period. Of all the problems, arguments, misunderstandings that we had, I'm glad we've come through them and manage to maintain the tightly bonded friendship we have. I always believe that it's tougher to have a true best friend as we grow older. People tend to get more complicated and tricky isn't it? Unless we really met one. Then the story is entirely different. But most of the time, we don't. Friend and true friend do make huge differences between both. To my soul mates, just to let you guys know that I'm always here for any of you no matter what happens. Just a phone call away. ;)

As of today, I woke up at six in the morning and get myself ready to hike with bee in kepong. I haven't really sweat like mad since the semester started. In another words, I haven't carry out any exercises in the past 4 months. hahah :/ So yeah, as usual the place has trees all over the surrounding which makes the air so freshly breathed in with the smell of leaves~ as well as the sound of insects along the canopy walk which makes me feels good and last but not least, the sound of water tapping and flowing down the rock at the waterfall which makes my mind free from everything else. The environment do helped me to escape from the complicated world for a little while. I was in total relax mode. Well, haven't feel as free as this for quite some time. In conclusion, I feel healthy today! Thanks bee. ;)

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Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)