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Oh yeah, my holidays started officially yesterday. I wanted to blog every night but my fingers felt so lazy to move and of course, to recall everything! This post was inspired by jass actually, after reading her long updates all the way in Perth!

First final exam in degree was rather scary cause I didn't have the ohm to do my revision at all. I tried so hard to sit and really read, but my concentration kept loosen off. Until the first day of exam was really hitting me, I could feel the tension and studied like bullet train. Overall, my finals was consider fine despite my grandpa passed away in the middle of the exam period.

We may feel regretful but sometimes, it's really fated. I remember that night my parents went kelam kabut getting ready clothes & documents before we made our way to my uncle's house at Setapak. Of course, I was going to sit for my third paper the next day but I just couldn't fully concentrate. At 11pm, I brought along my laptop and notes I made and there we go. I came home around 5am and continued the remaining lecture notes. Slept for 2 hours then off to college the next morning.

My exam ended at 2pm and I headed back to Setapak right after. I was almost dead sleepy that afternoon due to the super hot weather and the stuffy surrounding at my uncle's house. Still, I hold my notes in hand, insisted to study despite nothing really goes in my brain. In the evening, the ceremony thingy started. Every session took up 30 minutes and followed by a 30 minutes break then. I struggled so much as I haven't even started reading anything for my last paper the following day. Lucky enough the exam was at 5pm, which meant I had more time to prepare. Similarly, I came home around 4am, taken a nice shower & continued my reading immediately.

That midnight I was almost deprived from sleep, thus, I dozed off to sleep at 6am. In fact, I only completed the first part of my study, out of four! 2 hours later, my mum woke me up to study again. My eyes did not want to open, kept on fishing in front of my laptop. I went down to have some cereals to freshen up myself instead. At 11am, I went to my room looking at the comfy blanket on bed, I finally contempt. Around 12ish, I jumped up from sleep and started study like mad! The clock was ticking and I'd gotta rush. I screened through everything, then only memorized them by repetition hoping that everything stays right inside my brain. At 7pm, exams over!

Huge relieved but I didn't feel excited. Rushed back to Setapak and didn't had a proper dinner as I was late for the ceremony. The ceremony made everything even saddening. On the last day, I did fine. At the end of the day, we hold back the memories and move on. On top of that, my grandpa was really old and has been suffering from sickness for years. I guess it's a relief for him and for us as well. May you rest in peace, grandpa.

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)