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Some friends would know that I have phobia on snakes since young. Psychologists say phobias are not born, they are created. After I leant the topic learning in my course, I started to think hard where did I actually pick up such phobia. Unfortunately, the answer remain unknown until today. I'd only seen snakes in zoo where my family and I walked through a forest-like place and one super long fat old black snake is sleeping on our left, not caged at all my god! That of course are followed by the typical snake shows where a picture of you with the snake around your shoulder will be taken. The second experience about snakes is when a yellowish fat one was found in the living room of my dad's after-retirement-house. Even that, I only saw the bomba catched it out and flip it forth and back at the end of the road to make it faint/die from far.

Since then, I am so fear of snakes. I can't look at cute cartoon snake on movie, books! Even the simple outline of it, no way. I can't have any touch with its name, in any language! I think snakes in bahasa melayu is the most ewww. You know the hand gesture of snakes? No way too! Whenever I hear any sounds in kitchen, the first thing pop in my mind: snakes! Even the shower head in my bathroom looks like snakes T_______T I tried hard not to think that everytime I shower. If I accidentally saw one in books, tv, I stop moving as I feel that it is slowly going round my neck! Crocodiles, dragons are still fine because at least they have legs! and of course, their skin textures much better. Why do they disgust me so much and being so fearful to me? Alright... here's the list.

1) They have no legs, but THEY CAN LITERALLY STAND UP.

2) The omg tongue.

3) SKIN TEXTURES.

4) They deskin ishh! (I remember the name of such process starts with the letter E).

Recently, I've been really wanna overcome this fear through a technique called systematic desensitization. I started by pronouncing its name, by looking at its name, by touching the name. Besides that, I imagine and visualize it in my head very often. I look straight to its eye and not fear of it. In the past 2 months, it has also been appearing in my dream quite often. In the dream, it comes so near to me and I struggled. In this case, I usually woke up imagining that the pillows and blanket on my bed are actually snakes. Then fall back into sleep in a few minutes.

Anyways, the main point is that I will break through this phobia bit by bit! Yayy.. one day I will look at it eye to eye in real !

P/S: So much of goosebumps and imagination writing this post. :X

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)