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at 4:07 AM

Yay, I'm here to write again. I'm slowly trying to keep this space alive like how it did before. ;)

These few days I felt rather empty and unproductive. Ever since I took up marketing, my timetable has been stretched to 3pm for all 3 days. Longer time in college tend to feel more exhausted that I started to pick up my napping habits again... in a bad way. I could fall asleep like after dinner and woke up at midnight 12am. Then I'll have another sleepless night again, and this is what actually happening now. Maybe it's a good thing as well cause I could blog!

Well Mr. Alex, a lecturer of abnormal psych took over the class for 2 weeks. And he is the only lecturer who does not give any break in between the lecture. I love his style, the way he commences the class, his randomness, and the politeness of him. The syllabus is pretty much the same as what we've learnt in foundation but what makes his class so much interesting is, I think, because of the real life examples of abnormal behaviors that he deal with his patients before. It makes the theory seem more lively lo hahah

I remember he said something like all of us has the tendency to have psychological disorder or engaged in abnormal behavior, it just depends on whether we reach the extreme point of it. Looking at how I could be so depressive about life sometimes, it really got me worried a bit. Luckily the realization still comes about, which means I'm aware of it and everything is still under control. Tsk tsk, even I cannot tahan myself for thinking all sorts of unnecessary possibilities .__.

Still, I'm glad the lecturer brought back my interest in the subject. I guessed I gave miss suchen a shock when I said I'm losing my interest in the course. I mean, I still love to know why people behave in certain ways and learning more about the human cognitive thinking. However, the career path of it isn't something that I really wanted. Hmm getting lost in my final sem of 1st year is really like wth. Well even my dad asked me to study well, worrying that I would stop my study half way. Sometimes the statements that he made have me wandered about how are things actually really going on in the family. But no worries, I'm still able to keep pace with my academic and wouldn't give up anyway.

Earlier today, a close friend of mine talked a bit bout jobs and his words are actually still running in my head right now. He's true really. Just that I don't know... is it my searching skills or the workplace reality out there, it's just not easy to get into a company. Exceptional for people who did excellent in their academic of course. I'm a little sensitive when people talk about family business, probably because I'm not fortunate as these people and I don't get the priority in terms of working experience. My strong personality has made me not comfortable revealing what I do sometimes cause it's not like another achievement to be proud of.. to me it's rather disgraceful. But as I think of the sayings from certain working class people who fight hard to support their daily expenses, I could rather accept the fact of what I'm doing. However, the root of my personality has been constantly being triggered by sayings and the environment surround. These factors are really unavoidable.. so I'm learning to balance out my own feelings, to not set my expectations too high above my reach. How great if my life values can be met... *sigh, life life life again...

On a happier note, Tadaaa! me & my palette!

Finally gotten myself one! I really don't understand why make up products are not affordable. Branding does generates a high profit isn't it? I'm like getting pieces of everything at different times. Just wondering when will I be able to have all sets ready~

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)