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at 1:33 AM

Today, I realize a couple of things that scare me so much. Since I woke up late in the afternoon, I skipped breakfast every morning. On top of that, my appetite hasn't been good recently. I only eat food that appeals to me, fast food, cold drinks, etc. When it comes to dinner, the portion of rice I consume is getting smaller and smaller compared to before. No appetite, but I'm constantly craving for unhealthy food. This eating habit has been going on for a couple of weeks and I think I'm getting so thin already. Which is scary. A few shirts that I used to wear are looking loose on me now, the pants are the saddest case :'( I need to grow really. Working on it... let me think.

The hair is another problem. I always ignore mama's word whenever she complains about the hair fall on the floor all over my room. But now I think I've huge concern about it. Yes I have thick long hair but I don't think they are healthy. I haven't been to the saloon for months cause I just don't want to. They always trim the longer hair so that the shorter hair can grow and all reach the same length eventually. But that is not working at all! If that is true, it would have worked today. Here comes the scary part. I always feel a big amount of hair strangled on my palm whenever I wash my hair but today, I actually saw strands of hairs on my palm when I just simply grab my hair. I don't know if this is normal, but I can tell that the hair is getting weaker. Maybe they have insufficient nutrients for such long length of hair under competitive condition on the roots. Conclusion, I'm visiting saloon soon. :'(

I have been constantly working part time for the past 6 months, but scary enough I'm still so broke. Wtf have I done to the $$? Why people earn and save but not me... Then I realize for the past 6 months too, I spent on several trips, make up collections, personal payments, birthday presents and one BIG apple. Food and parents are never on my list gosh! Now I'm so thirst everyday waiting for the numbers of my bank account to increase cause I have one whole list of collection waiting me to get them. But no, I'm sacrificing them for other more realistic plans. :'(

Last but not least, timetable is out and they suck! 3 subjects in exchange for a 5 day classes. I thought I could do something useful on certain days that I need not to go back to uni. Super emo with it. On a brighter note, the subjects all seem interesting. Thats all! I have plenty of things to do but no idea how to get it started. Did research but... they're not helping. Looking for consultants for adviceeeeeeee.

Currently nineteen. Still figuring out about life, still have phobia on snakes. Favourite quotes: 'Dare to dream big, work them out by Z-A.' Know me better through my personal space here. :)